3rd time.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009 @ 11:59 PM

Going to take my 3rd Traffic Police test tomorrow...
Don't have much confidence but... I hope I do pass.
I want to feel what is it really like to finally pass the test.
I really do. *takes deep breath* Luck!~

--edited/add on--

I failed... for the 3rd time. This time, I obtained 12 demerit points and 1 immediate failure. If I didn't get that 1 immediate failure... I WOULD HAVE PASSED! T_T... I was on my way back to BBDC when I got that. I didn't hold my steering wheel firmly enough, thus the car was steered to the left side and nearly hit the curb. The tester got frightened so he gave me immediate fail for "Improper action causing accident/near accident". I didn't even hit at all and I managed to steer the car back in time :( That Yap Huat Choon is not lenient at all! Angry man with angry face and angry voice... Such an angry person :\

But after thinking over, I realized... the frightened face of the tester was a really funny sight :X I have frightened my instructors countless of times but this is the first for tester. Nevermind, this is also not my first time failing. I will definitely pass the next test! Definitely. I have improved tremendously. Spent another $295 to retake. My money... My one month pay... Good bye.

My next TP would most probably be on October. No more lessons on September so I have to take my TP on October. Shit... ALMOST TWO MONTHS OF NO DRIVING PRACTICE! Should be okay right? Because for my this TP, I had one month of no driving practice. Followed by 3 lessons before my TP date.

Jeffery Cheong SF, my favourite instructor, will be teaching me again. One thing for sure, I'll be looking forward to the driving lessons :)

Labels: driving, nervous, sad, test

Dejected again.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009 @ 4:17 PM

Maybe... I'm not cut out for driving... But I'm willing to try again, this time using my own money. Hur... I feel like curling up and die in a corner. I feel like crying until my tears turned to blood. What's done is done. Just have to try again.
This song makes me feel better :)
Listen to it.


The Climb by Miley Cyrus

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

Labels: driving, emo, song, test

Rants... Stupid Cough!

Monday, January 12, 2009 @ 11:01 PM

T_T~ My UT 4 (Understanding Test) for Structure Biology confirm a big F already! I have been coughing like for a long time, a month! and maybe most probably a few days plus. But this time, during UT, my cough became worse than ever!! I was trying to control my coughs, praying it would stop. But it didn't. It just continued on until I couldn't stop coughing at all. I was holding my coughs and I coughed with my mouth closed. I dare say my stomach/diagram ached painfully. I can't even continued doing my UT after doing Question 1a. Finally Francis, the facilitator, stood up, came in front of the class, looked at me and pointed towards the door. Yes, I know it myself that I'm distracting my classmates from their test. So I walked out of the class and immediately headed towards the pantry's sink. There, I coughed like I never coughed before. It was continuous and I couldn't control myself. I coughed until tears rolled down my eyes. I felt horrible. I decided to go to the toilet to continue my coughing there... I think I was coughing too loudly. I went into a cubicle and coughed until I puked. My vomit looked white foamy with reddish bits in the end. There's also a rice grain in there too :\ Funny... I didn't recall eating any rice today or even yesterday. Where did it came from? Well, anyway by the time I'm done coughing or feeling much better, I went back to class. I found out there's only 1min and 26seconds left to do my test. I gave up completely. I only did like first question part a and the rest is a complete blank! F! F! F! For sure. I was feeling pretty miserable. I can't even do a retake! It's not like the school's business to care at all. Ah~ Nevermind. I'm going to see a doctor tomorrow with ahsie accompanying me :) Thank you my friend! Thus, this means I'm going to skip school again! Because I've got my final UT for the year and of course, work tomorrow... Hope my coughing fits won't start up again and I'm not chased out for coughing too much. If that happens... I'm going to break down in tears :(

*Sorry for the nonexistence paragraphing. It's a massive rant!!

Labels: depressed, rants, sick, test

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